| well this is all i have left to say......
Its nice to know that i've finally been replaced pretty much in every aspect of your life.....
no one knows what it means probly but thats ok...i don't really want people to understand what i meant except for the person i meant it for. so don't bother asking i wont tell you so there is no point.
sorry if that seemed a lil bitchy or whatever but thats how i feel.
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| Yea i guess i might as well update.
so i don't have much to say
haven't done anything in the last month to write bout. but thats what happens when you become homeschooled. you lose all your friends and social aspect of life. now i go to school 9-5. when im done with my school work i have to work for my mom...doin nothin basically. answering phones,filing paper work, whatever my mom needs help with....i guess that isnt that bad. im making money. all of it sucks. but what does that matter to everyone im just another 15 year old brat complaining about pointlessness for attention. thats not what it is to be, but i can't do anything else about what it seems like to other people. i don't want to complain but when people ask me o hows homeschooling or what have you been up to...i have to lie and say o nothin much just chillin or when they ask bout homeschool i have to lie and say its alright. i don't want to lie. all that will do is in the future cause more lying in situations like that. maybe im just writing this because its not a good day. but i have every right to. i don't give a shit if my dad read it...go ahead. it won't do anything. just make my parents upset n make me feel bad for saying what i feel and the fact that i have to deal with it and nothin can be done.
i dont want to make this about bein homeschooled but when i think about it that is what everything points to. my lack of social life except for mitchell n those people that i guess i kinda hang out with. dont get me wrong i love bein with mitchell if i could i would be with him every sec of everyday, but thats not good for relationships or not in this point of time coz i guess some ppl would call it crowding or whatever. but now that i don't go to north..basically i don;t hang out with anyone. it just sucks. i have all these things i want to say but i cant. because it just doesn't come out right. o well.
anyways i've had the talk with my dad bout how i don't like homeschooling. if you ask me to him i think it just seemed like i was rebeling coz i was having a bad morning. and honestly i was having a bad morning, but it seemed like the right time to tell him. it didn't do anything. what can i do anyways. if i went to public school it would suck...don't know anyone at regan and that school is fuckin GHETTO....just like everyother school in h-town. where i really want to go i can't because its to exspenive and even tho there were things i didn't like..i would have to say i miss it and wish that i could go back. because honestly from grades 6-9 were prbly some of the best years of my life. especially freshman year. all the people i met that year the people i got to know better. the ones i was kinda friends with but didn't get the chance to know better, the people that i lost because of a certain boy issue at the beginning of the year. ellie, allison, jessica,misha, jaimie, chelsea, ashley, laura, megan,macky, lincoln....yall were all pretty much my closest friends through out the whole year...and shit i miss yall! i know i prbly left some ppl out n im sorry if i did.
i guess on another note.....
me and mitchell are doin just fantastic! i love him so much. miss him alot right now even tho i saw him last night. its just when im having a bad day hes the one i want there to make me happy again. we're comin up on our 9 months woot woot! hes so amazing i swear i don't know what i would do without him. i can just cuddle with him for hours, without sayin a word or goin somewhere n be perfectly happy.
well i gotta go coz my mom is bout to be done with lunch n shes prbly got stuff for me to do.
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| The used was freakin pimpizzle! and nothin else has really been goin on...i miss all my north ppl so much! but yea im pretty much done with the whole xanga thing...its all bout the myspace now biatches!!!
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| Goin to see the used tonight!!!
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| Well im not goin to north anymore. my parents told me today that im gonna be homeschooled...how fun! not! i don't wanna be homeschooled. UGHH THIS FUCKIN SUCKS MAJOR! but i guess i have to deal with it since i have no say so. so yea im gonna go coz im really upset bout this and just wanna be able to see everyone even though i can't. i'll prbly end up goin to some of the games n stuff and prbly homecoming.
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